Heaven's Loft.

This week flew pretty fast. I didn't realize i had not blogged for a week? Or more? A teeny weeny bit of stuffs which i should pen down here.

Yet another day in daze. If only I travel in speed, I'll move on faster than that lightning. I don't see why I should be in one spot, when I can actually move around to loosen things up. I'm having a seriously hard time waking up in the morning during school days. And that means, it affects my attendance for the classes that starts pretty early. I have no idea why but I think I need more sleep! Brain isin't working either but trying my best to get my mind to serious shit when I'm in school. No more bitching, laughing like a goon, no more acting all funny. Ella and Sharul, you hear me?

And I was thinking, what if I have the moon, the sun and the star together among the clouds? Which one should I pick?

I promised to post up my pictures of my outing with B, Wafi brother’s wedding, Rizal, Swensen’s ice-cream buffet, and much more but I am too lazy because there's plenty of them& my computer will definitely froze while uploading. Will just see my mood then.

Sometimes silence is bliss, but most of the time it cuts you deep. I just stay on and enjoy whatever that is left. Painful to go through but there is no other way. Some things fall randomly just like passing clouds but when the sun is shinning straight at you, embrace every inch of heat upon your skin. Phases are just phase that are bound to happen but mistakes are best to happen once not twice.

Damn if I could change my life right now, I would not be this deep underground. It feels like I'm gasping for air, as if I was being buried alive. I'm twirling around in this massive whirlwind, going in circles then being thrown to some redundant land that nobody knows about. I crawl to find shelter but the land is so bare with brown soil that I'm left stranded, waiting for another powerful bustle to sweep me off my feet again. Hoping that I'm being thrown to another place where nature exist. Bare brown soil is nothing great to see, I thought to myself. The moment that thought strike me, I thought again. "You need soil to grow nature". "Would I go back in time to get back to where I first landed? Or move on to discover that whole new world?"

My life has been pretty silly lately. But having the close ones around would definitely make you smile wide. I just happen to think and spill it out to my family, friends and Rizal that there's something missing in my life. All I know, I was there when you needed me. But now, you've been pulled by some other party which left us unsaid. Someday I pray and hope that you realized whatever you're doing is right.
God bless.

Okay, fast forward to today, school is vv draggy. This time, its really boring and its driving me nuts. The lessons are getting boring everyday. But WFB is the worst, i can only be very attentive for the first 15mins and aft that, I’ll bury my head down with my hands covering my face. TPS and SVE and LIFESKILL is boring too. Everything in school is boring, period.

Ok I don't wanna keep on rambling but I'll tell you about how school goes about. Its been raining lately, I like the rain, more hours of beauty sleep. As usual, school's dead with a very countable number of students even possible to count them with my fingers and toes. Gahhh. And everyone would be eating in school since the walking distance out is sucha killer adding to the rainy days too, I've been spending heaps of my penny on food. Two word, bloody pig. Sickening faces of lecturers day by day, from super old ass whiny whore hag to a paranoid students and schoolmates. It turns out to something to laugh at and not knowing that I will be having an upcoming test, soon. With those kinda lecturers, geez God..........

I think I'm going to hell.

Not forgetting, I had my first ice-cream buffet today. The first plate has already spoiled my mood to continue eating. Hahas. Sharul is already dying in front of me.
Thanks Sharul, for being a great friend today. Yummy yummy. (:

Okayy cut me some slack, its quite surprising to have me updating on what has been happening. Enough already.